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(Thursday, February 10, 2011-)
+4:44:00 PM]*

# future seem so far...-

Tell me...what should i do...

i cant do anything right...and...never will I....

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(Monday, February 7, 2011-)
+6:44:00 PM]*

# Please dun Abandon me...-

i thought the emotional tortures would somehow come to an end as the days goes by. but it seems to get worse everynight...

every single word that * has said, just kept running through my mind like a spoiled radio tape... and no matter how hard i tried to stop it...it never did.

atlast, i saw *car...for the first time, i wasnt paying attention to any black cars that ran passed...but * car ran passed very slowly just in time for me to look out of the window...but no matter how slow it went, i never get to see *.

Dear merciful Lord,

please hear my cries and help me...i can never deal with this alone...I really need your help...i really couldnt understand the things You are doing and i Know i should have faith and belief in you no matter what happens. But the blows just kept coming and coming every single hour every day...Please, show me the way....show me how i should i be dealing them...

i noe, everything its over...its all gone...but my heart isnt over with it...im still in dreadful pain...why...why does it have to be *?...i really dun understand...

Pastor Huang is with You now...all the hardships and pain he has been struggling with is finally over...i want to go up too...are there other sufferings still waiting ahead for me?

I need you Lord...talk to me..please...they are all gone. gone. wsid

Amen

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(Friday, February 4, 2011-)
+11:41:00 PM]*

# didnt get any better...-

If you still know that nothing has been changed in my life, would you ask me to forget you?

u would probably think im crazy and sick in the mind...

thought i saw him there at the coffee shop...that guy, with that same hairstyle...folded his arms exactly like u...slouched in the chair with his legs spread open...and the shirt that guy wore...were in acid wash colour...just like yours...despite all these similarities, there is just this one thing about that guy that told me it couldnt have been you...that place...you would never step into that place at all...

though im here being stupid and foolish all over again...i know...you are happy with your new life...

i want to have u remove....but it is not working with me. ...why.......

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