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(Sunday, January 30, 2011-)
+6:55:00 PM]*
# i received the message...-
It came again..but this time...my eyes didnt rain...sat on my bed pondering...and asked why....but i know, that is all i can get till this point...
dreamt of Him coming to my house....invited me to go on 'sky train' ride with him and the others....but apparently, she will be there....didnt seem to asked why he finally came back but i could remember every single thoughts that ran through my mind when he sat next to me, starring straight...
i thought to myself that he is finally back...and i asked, if i were dreaming again...
it happened too fast that i didnt want to spoil everything but to remain silent while he told me that there is this girl he had met recently...i cried.....
He went into my room and he saw the things stack at a corner....his face...the expression i failed to see with the light shining behind him...all i could see was him standing at the doorway, looking at me....
i guess, he should be happy with his life right now, though family couldnt seem to give him that happiness, i suppose she would be able to give him whatever he lacks in his life....
the story ends like this;
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(Sunday, January 9, 2011-)
+6:46:00 PM]*
# I want to be free Lord...-
it has been so long....everyday seems to be hell for me...But if not for God, i do not think i will be able to put on a smile...When will I be able to walk out of this nightmare....just when....
the story ends like this;
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(Friday, January 7, 2011-)
+8:32:00 PM]*
# Let me smile will you?-
I know nothing at first....i couldnt hear a thing...i wasnt able to see properly...andi wasnt able to believe...the perfect love it once was...the happy moments that was created...the safe zone I was once in...andthe heart i thought i had...if I had listen...if I had seen all of it more clearly...if I knew how everything would end...andif this is really love...I'll rather not be loved by anyone...clutching tightly to the pain left in me...gripping for that last hope left...yearning for it to recover...and...still keeping your smiles within me...why...why bother to step into my life...why bother to make me smile so happily and make me cry so hard in the end...why bother to dry my tears with your bare hands and make me live with grieve?why promise me your life protection when u had decided to leave me alone forever?
the story ends like this;
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