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(Wednesday, December 1, 2010-)
+6:30:00 PM]*
# set me free from this agony will you?-
u finally came to see me...when i first started receiving your usual cold messages with just three words, i thought, it would be another long day for me to get over with your cold attitude...but two hours later, u asked if you could come...you should have seen the face i had and i couldnt help but get so excited that i dunnoe what to do next....many questions kept popping up, such as wld you come hugging me tightly the moment you see me, or would you start saying hw much you have missed me...
but sadly, none of them happen...you just kept burying your head into your arms sitting there...i wanted to hug you, to tell you that everything is going to be alright...but, dk why, the space you gave me just now was just too big...the next thing i notice was, you werent wearing the key....my heart sank...you told me it was confiscated...i din noe whether or not to believe you..and the next thing i knew was, the only hope that i had...the only thing that still keeps me smiling was destroyed...you told me you had to go in for 9 days, during the christmas....everything happen way too fast...and all of the bad things just keep coming in...first her, your mum, then dylan...next your car then your father....all of them...just have to be the priority while im the last... i really dun mind being the last...but the way you treat the last, is just way too hurting....its like, dun mean a thing to you at all...
tried to tell you how i felt, but the only reply you gave was to agree with me that we are really drifting away from each other and you told me you cant think of such things anymore....
have been crying for days becos of this...and i cant turn to anyone at all....i woke up with reluctance every morning...dreading to see my phone showing only the time, and without any new messages from you....its getting more and more painful for me to survive the whole day putting a fake smile and draining out my inner energy just to push you away from my mind....its so different from the way we first started out together....now, you are acting like a selfish jerk...how painful that the feeling you now give is the same as the ones lh gave to me....
now reading the letter you gave to me seems pointless now...the fact that you told me you din noe whether those words you written for me is still valid...and i doubt you remember the things you said to me.
why are you being so selfish?
what am i suppose to do...
how am i suppose to face this alone....
the story ends like this;
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