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(Monday, November 1, 2010-)
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# on the verge of giving up....-
having you by my side for the whole night is a great feeling. not sure about you, but i was very reluctant to go to sleep as I noe that I might never get the chance to do this again with you.overall,i felt that i was the one telling you and ordering you to do things my way. till now, i am not very sure about you wanting to stay over. i do nt noe whether you enjoyed as much as I do and neither do i noe whether you like it or not.till now, i still have this feeling that we are still not very close. u seem to have things being hidden up which you do not want me to know. i am so confused about us. i really hate it when you flare up at me. I really dunnoe how long i could last. But then again i ask, if any of my feelings and our future really matters to you. becos all day long, you have been drafting up plans and talking non stop about your mum, your bro, your frens and your career. nothing much abt us. and if im nt wrg, i heard you saying that you will want to go overseas and this decision would depends on whether we are still together or not. not like our relationship is the crucial factor. i noe...its not and never will be the deciding factor. am i not right baby?me choosing to bottle things up not because i wanted to make your life difficult. i felt that it is more harder for me to be telling you problems when you never listened at all. you had no idea how badly i wanted to tell you how i feel about us, our future and such. please tell me what to do baby...i really do not want to break down the third time again. its torturing...today is the first time you send me home so early without my parents asking me to. yeah...i was very. very dissapointed. not sure whether the pain in your gum really makes you want to go home or was it because of your frens. becos the last tme you had your operations on your gum, you refused to let me go home becos you wanted more time with me. does this means that we had too much time for each other? i dun think u need me that much anymore as compared to the first month.
the story ends like this;
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