how nice it would be if you were with me...totally no messages or any calls from you the whole day...
you told me to have faith in you,
told me to trust in you and not doubt you...
said you get stress all the time when i assumed and asked questions...
really tried very hard not to imagine stuffs anymore...but you are making it harder for me as the weeks goes by....
you never answered me anymore
you call me no more
you dun seem to miss me at all...cos you never said it...in the past, you always tell me you'll do when we dun get to see each other for only a day....this time, its a week...but...
really want to know whats happening...really wished i could be part of your life...to share the sorrows with you...but u never did....all i could do these few weeks is to keep guessing...and guessing...hoping again and again for you to open up...praying for us to be happy once more....
guess deep down, im waiting for you to say that word....if your feeling has started fading, tell me...i'll really let you go...
"for awhile, you made it better...but now like today, you started fight......"
never will i forget this sentence and never have i felt this pain before....i cried throughout the whole night yearning for you....and I couldnt stop but to break into tears again when you finally replied me early in the morning ending with this sentence.....
everything seems to clear up more and more......im the least important in your life....nothing really matters even if it means losing me...i guess, i had put too much hope in this relationship, like the others....and i guess, i had chosen the wrong path again....whatever the case is, i hope You are alright....really want to tell you how much i had miss you...but i guess you wun be needing it anymore....
Dear Lord, i pray and and i beg again....
please do not let me remain at where i am, now....
help me reach to the place you want me to be....
please, just dun abandon me....nobody wants me anymore....i feel so alone...
take my worries away will You?
in Jesus name I pray, Amen