(Tuesday, November 23, 2010-)
+5:14:00 PM]*

# cut of the signal to my brain, i want to stop crying-

please teach me what to do...why am i facing the same problems again? when can i finally get out?


it would only take a dumb person to be oblivious to the changes in you this past few weeks. im not a retard and neither am i blind. its obvious that you no longer care about this relationship anymore..and im tired of guessing why. i have tried means and ways to make everything possible. but its really tiring and hopeless when you dun even want to try. its even more painful for me to derive to an answer that another girl has taken up the space in you and thus your attitude towards me.


all i hope for is, to not be so cruel to me by keeping all this to yourself. let me go if im not the one you really want. stop torturing me like they did. and i swear to God, after this relationship, there wun be another one. this is so painful...


p.s:i noe you do not care anymore....

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sitting on the bed..hugging the bear you bought for me....and i wish, that the bear is you...talking to him seems fun...but it would even be better if he could respond =( and as i wished for him to talk, i asked him a couple of questions that i longed to ask You...

i asked him what his master is doing now...because i miss him so much....

i asked him why his master have been so moody and cold towards me....and i hope everything would just be back to normal...

i asked him if his master still loves me as much as he said in the letter...because im afraid, he doesnt anymore ='(

i asked if his master still misses me..because he doesnt call me anymore....=''(

i asked if his master is cheating on me, because im really scared that my dreams would come true ='''(

and.........

i asked him if his master would be my future...but there and then, i really hope the bear wouldnt ans me..at all...

still looking at the hp screen...hoping to see your face pops up in my screen....really wished you would call....but it seems to me that you have been so tired everyday since your birthday....now, you would exchange not more than two sentences with me....im really scared....

i miss you...but you are really making it harder for me every single day, without letting my thoughts run wild....

its so hard to trust you now....i guess...you really do not care about me anymore...

the story ends like this;
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