(Thursday, June 24, 2010-)
+7:16:00 PM]*

# no turning back anym....-

i had always wanted to know what kind of answer you would choose...if given two options, a bitter goodbye....or sweet lies of an "i love you" ?

i didnt noe this answer.

what make it worst was, i only get to choose only one of them.


are you happy? i really wished i could tell you openly that i do miss you a lot. no amount of concealer is enough for me to cover the fact that i had been crying the last few days. right now, your cruel words are the only thing left in my mind.

now that we have broken up, would you be happier ? i saw your display nick changed to " 1 year ago, a new beginning! "

does this means that you are looking foward to a new relationship? does this means that you are happier now? i really wished i know....

right now, i just hope that once you have found a new girl in your life, you would tell me.

so as to let me stop loving you....ilu

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(Tuesday, June 8, 2010-)
+7:15:00 PM]*

# anti-loner for 14 months...-

03.23 am

its our 14th month anniversary =) ... though i was very dissapointed that you couldnt make it for our date, i still hope that this might not turn out to be a practice every month for as long as we last....

come to think of it, we did not much celebrate any of our anniversaries properly.
you told me over the phone just now that the day doesnt count as long as the date is marked in both of our hearts... i was very shocked and thrilled at the same time when you said that astounding sentence...but, how true does that sentence means to you? or...why do they sound so easy and sad...more like an excuse?

0958am
i guess i woke up too early, couldnt really sleep properly...i do not know why too...left my lappy in the sleeping mode too... i was woken up by Ron's barking, and they are all directed to my brother's girlfriend. she came this morning. well, of course my sister jumped up too, she loves her too. seeing all three of them talked so happily really made me feel so outcast by them. even as im typing, i could hear them discussing excitedly about going down to the wild wild wet.

1204pm
i had a feeling that baby is not going to come le....hais....i feel so lonely...they left already...rebecca managed to asked casually if im interested to join....what could i say? all three of them were already standing outside the main door all ready to go... i said bye with a smile in the end..didnt wanna spoil their mood anyway...

1225pm
i cried....i really hate this feeling alot....he isnt here with me.....can't you guys see that i wanted fun too? did i really enjoy staying home alone?....

1524pm
i was right...he did not come in the end....i guess my tears are coming out now...im not angry with him at all...i was dissapointed with me being so weak all the time....why didnt he bother to call me up? is it because he already know that we are going to quarrel over the phone very soon?

i guess he already predicted that he is going to hear the long complains that i always pulled at him....he doesnt like hearing them...

1933pm
no more messages from him already....sigh...he should be out playing basketball by now...
i wonder, if this is another lie too...i really dun wished to find out...its enough.....

1204am
sigh, there isnt any messages from him....heard a few nasty things from someone yesterday. i was rather hurt by it...really wish i know where you are now...missed you...

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(Friday, June 4, 2010-)
+2:06:00 AM]*

# take me away will you?-

i do not know when was the last time my heart smiled so happily like today.

yeap he came. and i, was happy to see him =) though my smile wasnt on my face..

wanted to ask him questions that has been puzzling me since, i dk when.
but when baby got so irritated, i decided to keep quiet.....

well, u did hurt me for quite a few times today with your words...were they really meant for me or, was that just you?

when you decided to stay on just to see me get onto the bus, i was really happy....but you didnt seem to believe me. why? what was that for?

i do not know who you are anymore....where did you go? why didnt you take me away too?

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