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(Monday, May 10, 2010-)
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# my smile has been foind i guess...-
Today was quite an interesting day…we were maligned of not doing our work during the meetings and yet, we enjoyed ourselves throughout the day =)
Today he called me “my baby”…i was overjoyed and my whole mood was lifted that very moment. Maybe it is just THE TWO WORDS, but it is not just any two words but dee two words. .
He then called late in the evening and was overjoyed to hear his voice despite the disappointment he gave which I do not wish to talk about.
He told me he would bring me shopping on Wednesday to buy that bag I wanted so much. However, he did not believe that I would resist his offer and was laughing away when I told him to spent it on himself. Well, it does hurt to know that he had doubted my sincerity but maybe time would prove what kind of a person I really am.
Wanting to look smart and good was what you long and hope for…
Wanting to have things which normal people possess was hidden in the corner of your heart and i do know..it hurts you a lot...
I could still remember the expression you had in your chubby face when we were choosing your clothes at the bugis…you couldn’t stop mumbling to yourself as you flip the clothes that were hung onto the cloth rack. If you were to ask me again what I really wanted, I would say that your genuine smile is all I really want. Having to see you smile happily was seldom and the last time I got to see you smile so happily was when we were out at the esplanade…
You, once again gave me a seemingly proven claim about the common problems couples would normally have.
“all couples have money issues”
And yet when being asked again what do you mean by that, you would just simply say
“I do not know…”
Sometimes, when I did my usual reviewing of what we did that day, I would always find myself laughing. And when I do that, I would always regret not being able to take a video of that whole process with you in that picture only. And sometimes I would wonder if, this could have been your way of making me smile and laugh?
it was rather funny to review my post that was blogged yesterday. that post blogged all my sad emotions and today's post blogged all my happiness, that comes with guit also.
the story ends like this;
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