(Sunday, May 9, 2010-)
+10:18:00 PM]*

# He dotes on me no more-

" Every man is afraid of something.

That’s how you know he’s in love with you; when he is afraid of losing you " - quote by Priya

its been a long time since i blog but thats alright......

have been feeling rather lost ever since that incident...though things seems to be normal...both me and him knows that there will always be this scar left on our hearts...and neither of us want to recognise it...avoiding i say...and yeah..i guess that's what we are doing right now...

its hard to believe at times that he still loves me... is it me or was it just me?? sensitivity was all he said and with that, he would walked away...

all i ever asked from you was to stay and listen to all i have to say...but you never did...

it was hard to smile when you apologised....because i know...im crying already....

you promised me your ears when i needed one...and you promised me your shoulder when i couldnt support myself...

but none of them ever came true...

you were last in the list when i needed to talk to someone....not because i do not need you...

but because,

i just couldnt bear to hear the endless dialing tone over the line and knew that you werent there..again.

and sometimes, when i couldnt control myself physically, you just wanted to walk away just as when i needed your help emotionally....

why is it so hard to love you without getting hurt?

you seems to be so much happier, even when you knew i was crying....why is that so...

the fact that you can mention so many times of break ups can only prove one thing...and that is your fear has never been me....

the story ends like this;
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