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You are working now…for the first time, I no longer felt the heavy stone in my heart anymore. Part of it have been removed by some unexplained reasons…what are they? I still do not know…

In fact, something in me seems to be increasing at a very fast rate.

It just could not go back anymore.
It just want to be placed near that someone. ..
It just want to comfort that someone…
It just want to say..i love you…

What have you done to have it steal away from me? what have you said to attract it over within a few min? how did you manage to heal it within a few months??? Antibiotics or what is still needed..but the covering of the wounds have been stitched by you..and I pray that the tearing will not be done by you…

Are we really happy now or were they just pure masks and toleration? All these make beliefs make me want to tear the screen down so that I can see the tears and frustrations in you…but can i?

Till now, I still am unsure of the words you gave me. you said you want to change for me, because you love me. you said you want to change because you knew that you have been treating me rather badly. but these words make my heart skip a beat because I no longer knew which are the truths anymore. All I can see was tolerance.

In fact, I knew that you are still tolerating me…why the tolerance when you can choose to forgive and forget? I have already forgave you, why can’t you just close one eye for the small little mistakes I have done to you? my violence towards you is something I cannot forgive myself either. but the least you could do was to pray for me…giving me back the irritations will not help when none of us are sober…but…hais…

When will these fantasy end? When will you show your true self? I am still waiting..and as I wait, I was also waiting for the day where you will threw the relationship away on my face…as the day goes by, I got very scared…really very scared….

the story ends like this;
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