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(Monday, January 4, 2010-)
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# want to leave this place forever...-
Tot that tml start sch…din have enuff sleep thinking that I can ton the for the last night…zzz
Skipped the morning meeting as I was too lazy to wake up…I juts kept readjusting my alarm to a later time. from 5.45 to 7.15 then from 7.15 to 7.45 then finally to 8.00
Dunnoe wats wrong with me too. I cried yesterday after i saw the time table…as I crept back to my bed reluctantly, I teared…becos, it really sucks to go to sch with nothing to look foward to. And it sucks to do something that I do not like at all after a quarrel with ahh pui.
14:45
Just finished presenting…and he did not reply anything relating to the message I send hime yesterday. I just dun get it…why must he always act blur and avoid the problems that hurts me the most?
20:22
Just finished my reflection journal. Failed to fulfil the things you said to me yesterday. You went out with your friends instead. Am I that small in your eyes? Why am I being put last all the time?
Waited for you to stop hurting me. but now, I know this would never happen as long as I am not the girl you really like. Wanted to wait for you to stay by my side for just this once. But now I know, it will never happen. and as time goes, I started to forget that you ever exist whenever I start crying.
I’ve waited till my hands and fingers went numb with all the repeated non –stopping dialling on my mobile for you. because, you never did pick up my calls. My mind went blank whenever I started crying. Because, I know that no matter how much I tried to remember the things you did to me, things will still be the same.
My mouth went numb with all the heart –felt talking to you. u listened patiently, but you never did help to console me. you were there physically. You were there right in front of me. but your heat, have never go all out for me. you never did feel sorry for me. you never did pity me with all the sufferings I went through. You never did.
Even as I speak, you were out having fun with your friends. My sister and brother got so close all of a sudden. And now, im being left out. Tried to blend in, but they were not interested at all. and so, I cried the moment they left the house for yishun.
I cried because I realised that I was no longer being love by anyone. Not even you.
You told me that you wanted me to be happy. But you never did make me happy. You wanted the relationship to last, but you never did do your part. Break up were the only thing you did.
I wanted to give up. I really wanted to give up. And, I no longer want to talk more anymore. Because ignoring the nasty attitude and the feeling of being left out were not easy at all. ignoring the fact that no one cared at all were difficult too.
Dear God,
I really pray that you would take me away from here. I want to be with you forever. I do not want to stay here. I feel so lonely. I really did. Crying was all I did here. help me forget everything will You?
Help me let go of this painful memories will You?
“I will find my way, I walk a different way, there’ll be a brand new day…”
“nothing will stop me now, no matter what they say”
“我会用努力和坚强的来面对一切。。。我一个人了。。。”
the story ends like this;
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