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# love me or torture me-

Is quarrelling the only way to communicate between us? It really sadden me to think that we have to go through a cruel and violent bickering to find out the truth we wanted and getting hurt and ‘abused’ before we can stopped.

What are we becoming into? Enemies? I do not know.

I do not know what has caused you to accuse me in this manner. What was I doing? Why were there light on my face you asked? Am I doing other things? Yes. I was indeed doing things.

I was busy giving my eyes some comfort therapy after having been doing my homework. Baby, I was looking at you…

My eyes were itching and and it hurts nowadays. So I have to constantly adjust the LCD light to a more comforting which will stop my eyes from tearing again.
Baby, that explains the light on my face…

It is okay to ask me. but what were the accusations for? What were the disbelieves for? Baby, I am still your baby. Why is that you are hurting me so much even when you were so far away?

Maybe you were angry because I refused to give you the password to my blog. I did that because I cannot bear to see you get hurt over the things I have said. I cannot bear for you to get vexed over the things i said in my blog.

[[7.55]]
Called you. I decided that I should not continue to be so petty and childish. Decided to give in to you. decided to exchange my pride for your voice. But..i ended up crying instead. I was very hurt. No one has treated me in this manner before. And for once, I was at lose of words.

I was here trying to change but it didn’t work out. Must I persevere? Is it worth trying?

[[11.00]]
Saw his message. But they sounded so mundane and dull. The words were so familiar that I could almost memorize them. i do not know what to do. I really do not know what to do. first time in my life, I could be looking forward to…..nothing.

Let me go or to torture me?

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