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(Saturday, December 19, 2009-)
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# 我能放下吗?-
我算是什么？我在你们的眼里，有多重要？
I would pay to get an answer from every single one of you. I really want to know the truth… despite the obvious answers displayed in front of me, I still want it to be heard from each and every one of your lips….
With or without me, does not really matter aint it? I’m not worth your every single effort just to humour me, to earn my forgiveness or to even talk to me or even be with me. it pains to see myself being rated at such low ranks. It is pretty irritating to someone beating about her own life crying out how pitiful she is… but have you ever want to stop and look at this girl for just this few seconds?
I’ll do anything to get all of your attention silently. But getting all the nasty stares and comments have never crossed my mind and I do sometimes wonder why do I have to do all this unnecessary things?
They do not need to do anything I have done to earn other people’s liking but me? I act like im an unwanted human whom people really detest talking with. Being alone is my style. And I really do not want to care how people thinks. But the way they act around me , really hurts me.
Having you by my side does not make any difference. You are just the same as them. the only difference is the both of us are of different gender with a special name “couple”. Support, love, care, concern and happiness were never there. and I am still waiting. I really am….but till how long can I withstand your attitude you are giving me? I really have never expect myself to land in this state.
A self pity and annoying attitude will never be attracted to anyone. I really wished for just this one day where I can be freed of all this pain and just be myself. Can i? I really want to drop everything down and walk on without looking back. But I cant do it…我真的做不到…
the story ends like this;
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