(Monday, November 23, 2009-)
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Love has defined me as a very violent girl with a gentle and quiet disguise. I guess this was not what you want in the first place and this was not the life you wanted.

Take it as an assumption I do not know, but all I hope for was you to forgive wrongdoings. I fooled you into liking me before letting you see the ugly side of me page by page. This wasn’t what I had in mind when love was being thrown to me.

When you sworn over your heart in the name of the Lord saying that you will never leave me, I would first want you to think of what you had said before saying them out. I know that it is impossible to say that you WILL in the long run. Because you never know your feelings until new things have been shown to you.

No one in this world can be very sure that their love will never waver. NO ONE..

When there were signs of outsiders intruding into our space, I would panick. Yes. You said in the name of love, I would have to trust. And then all the other elements of love comes out and either of us would have to abide to it. But when none of them does, it will be ‘alright’ as long as none of them bothers.

You did hurt me a lot this past few weeks. Your oncoming msgs with the girls and unrepentable lies killed me like I have done the most gravious sin in the world.

Violence may have gotten over me this past few weeks which must have make you love deteriote. But I really hope that if there were to be a day where your limit have been run over and could never refreshed, tell me. be honest with me even on the last day you spend with me. that’s all I ask of you before you leave.

You have already predicted the things I would do whenever things starts to go wrong. be patient with me and help me get out of this trauma I have gone through.

Fear have allowed me to overcome it with anger and no amounts of efforts I put in can ever distinguished the hatred I have in me. the only help I need is you to help me control my temper. It is never you job that you must do this. But the only help I want is you to stay and help me tide through this.

Maybe if God allows you to succeed this, I will congraduate you with this post I have for you. this last paragraph is for you…thanks baby, for running this race with me.



p.s : Just this last question, are you willing stay by my side for all kinds of costs?

the story ends like this;
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