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(Wednesday, October 7, 2009-)
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# wat am i suppose to do?-
i dun think i can take it anymore.all this time...there were nothing...i din noe that i was living in the world of fantasy. all the words and promises, were actually nothing. this past six months, i was being dump by all the things he told me.LOVE: wat does love really means? what does love do to u? do they make you do things that u have never thought of doing it? does love change u into a nother person? perhaps a nicer person? or..someone u do not even noe who u were anymore?love, is just like my long lost dream that i had once upon a time. i have always thought that love was something that can make me happy. my dreamer, where i can always remeber them without closing my eyes. my shelter, where i can always hide in. my peace and comfort, where i can rely on no matter what happens... and...my colourful world....where i will always smile and forget all the trouble i have..but atlast, the love that im having now, was nothing like that. all this time...i have been trying to fulfill my type of 'love'...all this time. i have been doing things that i had always wanted. i provide shelter, i provide comfort and peace and...i tried making a colourful world for him...all this time..i have been living by myself. and...im tired...really really very tired. all i wanted to do was go somewhere quiet..where there is nothing but blue skies and greeneries..which allows myself to stare at nothing but the clear blue skies...and think of all the things i have never dared to think of at home..becos...when it happens, there will be tears running down..and...all i wanted to do was throw all my overloaded bags down...thrown them to somewhere far far away...thats all i ever wanted to do...with no one..but myself..thats what i wanted to do...i feel like resting...resting forever...thinking of nothing but clear blue skies..all this time..i was alone..my precious time, love and money...were all been given...to someone i thought 'my partner'...i was being very naive...words...and words..were given to me..but there were no action...i am really very naive....really...tired...he have nothing to say...and so..i gave up...becos...loving a person who does not really care..is really very tiring...im waiting for him to say good bye...becos..this was what he have been doing too...he was waiting too.....this time..i carn pick myself up anymore...no one...there..tag:umakemefalldownwithtears
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