(Thursday, October 22, 2009-)
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Was not sure whether this was what I wanted in the first place.
· Hurts were given to me so many times, and by the time the hurt was gone, I no longer believe in happiness i might get
· Smiles? No longer the same anymore
· Stress? Increased more than I wanted it to be gone
· Peace? Never felt any
· Love? Based on your words alone and nothing else
· Happy? Not a slight hint at all

I wanted to smile so much that I actually did so by sleeping. However, no matter how many times I have entered the lala land, I am still never happy. I dunnoe why

Times have make me realise what kind of boyfren u were. Time have make me realise how important I am to you. time have make me realise how much this relationship really matters. And time have make me realise that u have no goals at all. and that makes me sad.

Friends? I do not have…boyfriend? No different..i do not have anyone on my side now.

Love me?miss me? so what? Does it really matter? Those are just your own feelings…not mine at all. u have never thought of me. never. NEVER! And I do not know why I have to go through all such shits just for you. I don’t know why I have to be so dumb as to forgive u time and again just because of that words you said, just because of that no effort you put in in asking for my forgiveness. Sorry was all you got. SORRY WAS ALL YOU GOT AND NOTHING ELSE!!

I don’t know why i have to give u so many chances when you do not even change or cherish the chances I gave you. ur character aint that kind I thought you were. I guess I were wrong. I was worng from the start. I should have given myself time to noe him better. But no. and now…I do not know what to do anymore.

Frens…shit
Bf…nothing
Family…what more can I say?
No more.
sleepingwasalliwaswaitingforthewholedaynothingelse

the story ends like this;
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